Power in Vision.

At the start of the pandemic I was shown a vision that haunted me. It’s not one I’ve shared to many people because I do my best to avoid inciting fear but spirit, along with a wonderful friend, nudged me to share it with you this week. I’ve written different versions of this dozens of times with the desperate attempt to “lighten” the fear associated with it because I still do not want to make you fearful but, in the words of this friend, “Reality can be terrifying. But I’d rather be afraid of what I might lose so I can fight for it, than afraid of what happens if we say and do nothing.”

First, let me briefly explain that premonitions and visions don’t always come in literal form. Sometimes they’re vague or symbolic. Like other messages I receive while channeling, sometimes they come in the form of movies/TV and other times they’re clear, distinct and undeniable messages scribed from spirit directly. In this case, it was a vision of a scene in a show that I was given repeatedly throughout my day. Spirit asked me to share it in 2020 but I was scared. If it was something that worried me, I could only imagine those who don’t understand this gift would take it and allow it to become a big tornado of fear. Still, my friend is right, reality itself is terrifying and if relaying a message can help motivate people to change the future then that’s what I’m going to do.

So here goes: there’s a scene in Handmaids Tale where June has a flashback of when she, her husband and her young daughter are fleeing to Canada, running for their lives in the woods. At one point in the scene, she’s clutching her daughter, trying to escape the terrorists who just took over but June’s caught. The terrorists ripped the mother and daughter apart from each other, separating them permanently. The mother is made to become a handmaid, raped constantly while enslaved by a wealthy family. The daughter is adopted by another wealthy family with the goal to eventually grow up and repopulate the country. The scene is brilliantly acted with the level of fear and loss conveyed perfectly on the screen even though it’s just acting.

When spirit shows me this image, over and over and over again, I feel it as though I’m living it. I know I’m pregnant right now and some of you may think “oh dear, Megan, pregnancy dreams are crazy! It’s all fear of change and becoming a parent manifested into craziness!” But I need to emphasize: this was not a dream. This was long before I was pregnant. This was a vision – something I’m shown randomly throughout the day and without any triggers to manifest it.

Even now, I see it so clearly replaying over and over again. We’re running for our lives and I keep hearing the screams. I keep feeling the lump in my throat like I can’t yell any louder, as though nobody can hear me or those who can- don’t want to help. I keep feeling my body being restrained and held back as I fight to get back to this child. It’s like any other channeling except instead of being given an overall message, I’m being shown pieces because “other people are being shown the other pieces and together you all will build the puzzle to solve the problem.” That’s what spirit just said as I wrote this so I guess it’s even more of a push to share this. If you’re one of the people being given the other pieces, please feel brave enough to share too.

I learned a while ago that every medium or intuitive gets different messages for different reasons. Some have been saying for the last year that the government as we know it is changing. Some have been saying that they keep seeing images of children being taken away. Maybe all of this goes with what I see and maybe it doesn’t. Maybe some messages can be trusted and some can’t. I will never know because, as I say constantly: Mediums/Intuitives/Psychics are *not* all knowing. They simple channel messages from beyond and have a choice to share it or not. Some people channel messages from the source, some channel messages from energies claiming to be the source and others channel messages from lower energies intentionally because that’s where they seek to be informed. Personally, my series of prayers and rituals ensures I receive my messages from the source.

You may say, “but how do you know that’s where you’re getting your message?” The answer is because I’ve trained myself to differentiate. My spirit guides have tested me and showed me the difference between God energy and false energy. It’s not my responsibility to make others trust me but it is my responsibility to relay the messages God wants me to share.

I’ve waited long enough to do it. I feel in my bones, at my core, in my soul – now is the time to tell you what’s happening. Human rights are being stolen from people. In this particular case, those with uteruses are losing the right to have full control of their bodies. It’s what we see clearly on the news but it’s going to get worse if we don’t change it. I don’t know the severity. I don’t know if the vision I see is literal or if it’s meant to shake people up because something worse is coming. I cannot tell you that. I can only share what I see/feel.

As I write this, I am told, “Remind them that everything is a matter of free will and souls on the other side are using their free will to sign up for scenarios with abortion as helpers to teach those who need to experience this in their life and as lessons for their own souls.” I’ve channeled many aborted children who have told me similarly, that they attached themselves to the mother with the knowledge that she was not going to keep them but wanted to *help her through the hard and necessary decision. * I’ve also channeled souls who wanted to come through but understood Mom had to make a hard decision and were ready to come through at another time. I’ve channeled souls who were miscarried and had similar messages. I’ve also channeled souls that are alive now and have explained that the abortion or miscarriage were helping them because they were originally not being born in the body they wanted and in this way they have. There are so many examples and none of them are your business unless it’s a decision you’re making for your own body.

Abortion is done for many reasons and is not easy. I’ve had loved ones who had to abort the child they prayed for because keeping the child could endanger the mother’s life or mean that the mother would give birth to a child who would not survive because of a genetic issue in utero. I’ve known people who aborted their child because their birth control didn’t work and they couldn’t afford to take care of themselves, let alone take care of another life. I’ve heard adults who were the product of rape explain that being alive hurts them because they know every time their parent looks at them, they see their rapists face. I’ve also known people who were simply not ready to be parents and made a difficult decision to help better their future. Just because that decision wasn’t done through trauma, doesn’t make it any less significant and deserving to have full control over their own body.

Men’s bodies have never been policed or had laws enforced upon them. Why is mine?

Months ago spirit told me that women are extremely powerful beings and history has taught us that powerful beings are always controlled by law to keep them powerless. We’re taught at young ages not to trust other women and to go against other women for the same reason because if we are separate than we are not at our fullest power. I grew up in the age of Britney vs. Christina, Buffy vs. Cordelia, Buffy vs. Faith, Joey vs. Jen – heck, even Tia vs. Tamera! It was never a matter of “let’s celebrate all these awesome women.” It was always a “who do you like more? Who is better? Who’s more beautiful? Who’s more talented? Who deserves more air time?”

We were given shows with storylines that made us think you can’t trust women because they’re always scheming for your job or your man. We were taught to criticize each other’s bodies and in doing so, learn to despise our own. Women like Lizzo come out celebrating their figure and tons of women who don’t look like her start to show their fatphobia but all of that is internal hatred because the system taught us that women cannot love ourselves and women cannot love each other.

Do you ever ask yourself why?

When I see a woman being trolled on the internet I ask myself, why does this person care that she’s celebrating her outfit? That she’s confident? That she’s not rocking “this seasons trends” but wearing what she feels best in? Because *THE SYSTEM IS DESIGNED TO KEEP YOU DOWN* and make you feel powerless, make you hate yourself, make you buy all the products to feed the ego fears that you’re not enough, that you aren’t beautiful, that you aren’t deserving, that you cannot celebrate yourself and that you have to keep paying into the world trying to divide us.

When “W.A.P” came out, some of my female family members were outraged. They said it was the most disgusting song and should be banned from the media because it’s teaching children to be oversexualized. A song like W.A.P didn’t do that. Teaching a little girl that she can’t wear a tank top in school because it “distracts the male staff and male students” teaches children to be sexualized. That song celebrates and reclaims a woman’s body as her own. It’s not even my jam and I can see that the song is one of POWER. That’s the real reason it makes you uncomfortable, because women do not feel entitled to have power. Too many systems in place are designed not to let us feel that way so when we see it, it makes us uncomfortable.

“Well, I’ve never heard such a nasty song about a woman’s body before!” – I was in 6th grade singing Ludacris’ “What’s Your Fantasy” like my life depended on it. Nobody cried outrage. Parents, teachers, my own family members, classmates, strangers – people sang along. That song is all about a man and what he would do to a woman’s body but the minute a woman shares that same sentiment about her own body – it’s filthy. Why?

Because we’re constantly being fed the notion that we have no control of our body. We are constantly being fed the trauma that our body must be controlled by man and when fight back, whether by twerking on tiktok, wearing clothes that make you feel confident, or wearing pussyhats in solidarity of other women, the system gets scared. More videos appear trolling these women, more laws are written to control women and more people with histories of abuse against women are elected into places of power to make sure those laws come to fruition.

All to trick you into believing that you do not have power. All to divide you more. So the next time you see a woman on TV, in movies, the internet, at work, or in public doing something that makes you uncomfortable – ask yourself “does this actually hurt me? Or is my internalized misogyny boiling to the surface?” If it’s the latter, learn from it and celebrate the fact a woman is finding her power because that helps others do the same.

The real outrage needs to be directed toward Texas’ lawmakers. It needs to be directed toward the companies you pay for services and products that funded the lawmakers who are taking your rights away. Those of you with uteruses, now is the time to speak up. Now is the time to start questioning the reality of your power and stop allowing the systems in place to shrink you. To those of you without uteruses, your silence is deafening and I’m sure I’m not the only one who notices. Your loved ones who have lost their rights hear it too. It shouldn’t even come to that though – you shouldn’t need to know someone personally to actually care. Human beings matter and if you were losing full control of your body you’d be outraged and scared. That’s how many of us are feeling. Do you care?

So now you know. Now you know the vision spirit keeps replaying in my minds eye and you know the fact that they’ve been equally vocal about how powerful we are to change it. What are you going to do about it?