Past Life Trauma

When I was a little girl I was terrified of needles and knives. I’d go to sleep at night and cover my wrists because I was irrationally afraid something was going to hurt my wrists when I was laying down. I told my mom I thought I might have killed myself in a past life. It’s funny saying that now because I realize a little girl saying that to her parent must have been weird but my mom understood me.

I thought I was trapped with this crippling fear. I used to have nurses hold me down just to draw blood because I’d fight them to release me. This object had control over me and I didn’t truly know why. Two years ago I received my first Akashic Record Reading. It was the inspiration for me to pursue doing readings for clients because I witnessed firsthand the power of healing through the records. Mary, the beautiful soul who gave me my reading, explained to me that my past life involved being tortured. According to my records, I was a nun who heard spirit like I do now but because of my religion at the time, I was seen as demonic for speaking about my gift. In my past life, I was held down and tortured to death.

As Mary told me this message, I broke down crying. I couldn’t understand why I was crying as I had no recollection of this memory but I couldn’t stop crying. She explained this experience from lifetimes passed made me fearful of knives, needles, and speaking out about hearing God’s messages. She explained how past life traumas become embedded in our body and soul, crippling us if we give them power. That night I cried on the phone to Mary and felt something release from my chest. A few days later I visited my doctor who also happens to do acupuncture. I laid down, immobile because of all the needles in my body, and felt peace wash over me. I truly believe the combination of Mary’s reading and the acupuncture were the beginning of my life path with the Akashic Records and I’m grateful beyond words.

Yesterday I received this point in my hand to help with a headache while talking about what I do for a living. I smiled knowing I’ve come so far from what once felt like a curse. Gratitude comes in many forms. I guess this is one of them.