The magic of Halloween

Let me start this off by saying, I am so excited for today!!

It’s Halloween and the veil that separates us from those who have passed is much thinner than normal. What’s this mean? Well, it means that for those of you who aren’t Psychic Mediums - you may feel your loved ones presence a little easier than most other days of the year or it will be easier for them to send you the signs you’ve been asking for. Don’t hesitate to direct your thoughts to your spirit guides and loved ones right now and say, “I thank my spirit guides for helping me to remain open today so that I am receptive to the signs that my loved ones send me. I thank my loved ones for sending me signs that they are doing well and forever by my side.”

Make note of the intuitive nudges you feel today. Write down any of the signs you receive or acknowledge them in some way because, in future days when you feel less “connected” you will be grateful you have the reminder of how connected you truly are. Just because the veil is thinner or lifted doesn’t mean you don’t always have the connection. In fact, you are connected regardless of the date on a calendar. We all have webs of light that connect us to each other, both past and present. It’s such a beautiful gift from God!

A little over a year ago I went through a really dark time in my life. I had begun writing my book and unmasking all of these dark feelings that I had tried to hide throughout all of the obstacles in my life. Dark feelings and memories that I buried deep inside and forgot about were suddenly clawing themselves to the surface and making it so that I felt suffocated by anxiety. It felt as if a dark cloud hung over my head but only I could see it.

There were days I couldn’t leave the house and days where I felt so painfully alone that I couldn’t even hear spirit. I would go into my Akashic Records and retrieve messages from my spirit guides that almost always said, “trust the process,” “let yourself go through this because it will be over soon,” “trust that God will get you through this dark time. It is necessary for your souls healing.” It made me angry. Most days I’d leave the records feeling peaceful but after rereading the messages I’d get angry all over again as I felt short-changed in guidance. I looked at these messages as ways to pacify me until the next time I went into the Records. I didn’t look at them as significant messages. That’s because I refused to. I wanted an easy fix and not a proper healing.

At some point, I stood in an aisle of Michael’s crafts and felt anxiety drowning me. I began sweating and panicking as I was in public and not in the safety of my own home. I texted my family and told them I was scared to be experiencing this anxiety. My sister Noel calmed me down by reminding me that sometimes it’s best not to fight it, just let the anxiety wash over me and away. It’s like trying to swim against the current- it does nothing but exhaust you and possibly bring you under, drowning you in a seemingly endless energy bigger than yourself. She told me to swim with it, not against it. She told me to breathe. So I stood in Michael’s, letting tears discreetly fall down my cheeks and I tried breathing as best I could. I stopped fighting the feeling.

It passed.

It never passed quickly but this time it did. Suddenly I understood, to a minor extent, what spirit was trying to tell me in trusting the process and trusting that God would get me through the dark times. My sister was the messenger and I finally heard the message.

Soon after, I decided to go into the Records on Halloween. I felt like I was swallowed by darkness most of the time and so I couldn’t hear the messages spirit was giving me. I relied heavily on the concept that the veil would be thinner and I could hear them clearer. Thank God I did because a year ago tonight I reconnected with all of my grandparents, my uncle, and souls that saved my life in past lives. I connected in ways that still shock me to this day but serve as important reminders for me on days where I feel “disconnected” from spirit. Even Mediums have days where we can’t seem to connect. We’re human, after all!

I wanted to share one of the messages I received from my spirit guides during this memorable experience. It helped me through a lot of what I was going through and I hope it will help whoever is reading this too.

“Dear One, you have struggled in the past to listen but you are receiving messages loud and clear now. Brava!

You are not harmed or lost or misguided. You may feel weak but you are stronger than ever. Remember the story of the little coal boy? He walked all day to find only dirt and pitfalls of sand. But he did not abandon hope or feel lost for he found the diamond in the end. He knew what others could not see. Thank you for your patience as I know it has been difficult. The light at the end of the coal mine is coming closer. You will find the diamond in the rough.

We waited for this so the oil could come to surface and you would only swim in clear water. My child, how exciting this new chapter will be and we applaud you to have made it this far. Amen and God almighty has saved us.

Ridicule is a part of every major life lesson for you only feel the grace of God after giving in and accepting this is merely temporary. He always takes care of His children.”

He always takes care of His children.

He always takes care of His children.

He always takes care of His children.

Repeat this to yourself on moments of uncertainty or “weakness.”

I grew up without a father so the concept of being anyones child outside of my mothers was foreign to me. When people told me God loves all of His children, I thought, “But only those who are baptized, right? I’m not baptized so he must hate me.” THIS is a social and religious construct. The idea that I am less-than is a mask that I wore for way too long. I still sometimes find the mask begging for attention on days where I feel more vulnerable and scared of showing who I really am.

But then I remind myself: He always takes care of His children.

God put you on this earth with a mission to be the person you’re meant to be. He didn’t put you here and say, “Hey, be the person that XYZ wants you to be, okay?” He always has our best interest at heart. Sometimes the life lessons we’ve been sent to experience are hard obstacles like waking up in the morning feeling like you can’t see through the darkness. It can be overwhelming and make us lose sight of what is really happening. But then I remember that, “You only feel the grace of God after giving in and accepting this is merely temporary. He always takes care of His children.”

The day I stood in Michael’s and let go of the fight against my anxiety was the same day that I welcomed God to help me through it. I’ve had many days that have since followed where I still needed the reminder to “Let go and let God.” Part of being human is to have these flaws and hardships be dealt with on a daily basis. Part of remembering you’re also one of God’s children is to know that you’ll survive them all with His help.

Today, I pray you feel His presence in every step you take. I pray that each Autumn leaf reminds you that things change, situations change, seasons pass and so will whatever you’re going through that feels never-ending. I pray today serves as a reminder of yourself as a child. Be silly, have fun and be fearless. I pray your loved ones and spirit guides step in to remind you when you fall short.

Most of all though, I pray you feel connected; to your true self, to your loved ones in Heaven and on earth, and to God Himself. May you feel bigger than your body tells you that you are.

God bless you.